Hello my little ugly dark side, it has been quite sometime since our last acquaintance, but my oh my, look how huge you get, you are not that little anymore, apparently you aren't following the same physiological restrictions as i do, apparently you can never stop growing. Well, good for you my hideous friend, and as always, bad for me.
Since i came to the conclusion that i could never escape you, so i thought that i better accept you as a life long friend, and for that matter let me start by calling you "H" as a short of hideous now forth.
Dear H, humans are dumb, they tend to forget too quickly, they tend to fool themselves that they are better than the others, they can make "it" work, they can learn from their mistakes and avoid them in the future, how dumb and ignorant is that!?
I think what we are as humans is a bulk of a living mistakes, but we only notice and learn from our most outrageous and visible ones, so if you were lucky to be strong enough to tackle those mistakes, well, bravo, but you will remain miserable. Cause dear H, you can't change what you are made of, you can't be perfect.
I have done some major troubles in the past, that affected my whole family, and i swore that i'll never cause that much pain to myself or to anybody else in my whole life, i swore that i'll give it all what i've got, and i did but apparently fate works in mysterious ways, as it looks like all the choices i made to make my family happy and proud are gonna bring them misery again, and i don't think either them or me can handle it this time.
Dear H, dying alone don't looks as gloomy as it was in the past, or may be i am fooling myself to accustom it, as this probability is growing stronger by day. But i believe in God's justice, i believe that even if died alone, i will be compensated some how later in the afterlife, as i am a good guy, or am i?
Dear H, i feel helpless.
Fighting for something is far more rewarding and less troubling than fighting for someone, i know you have once told me that before, but i got arrogant, i made myself forget, as after all i am a human, as dumb as them all. Don't give up on me man,keep reminding me, as sadly you are my only refuge and 'let out' now.
Since i came to the conclusion that i could never escape you, so i thought that i better accept you as a life long friend, and for that matter let me start by calling you "H" as a short of hideous now forth.
Dear H, humans are dumb, they tend to forget too quickly, they tend to fool themselves that they are better than the others, they can make "it" work, they can learn from their mistakes and avoid them in the future, how dumb and ignorant is that!?
I think what we are as humans is a bulk of a living mistakes, but we only notice and learn from our most outrageous and visible ones, so if you were lucky to be strong enough to tackle those mistakes, well, bravo, but you will remain miserable. Cause dear H, you can't change what you are made of, you can't be perfect.
I have done some major troubles in the past, that affected my whole family, and i swore that i'll never cause that much pain to myself or to anybody else in my whole life, i swore that i'll give it all what i've got, and i did but apparently fate works in mysterious ways, as it looks like all the choices i made to make my family happy and proud are gonna bring them misery again, and i don't think either them or me can handle it this time.
Dear H, dying alone don't looks as gloomy as it was in the past, or may be i am fooling myself to accustom it, as this probability is growing stronger by day. But i believe in God's justice, i believe that even if died alone, i will be compensated some how later in the afterlife, as i am a good guy, or am i?
Dear H, i feel helpless.
Fighting for something is far more rewarding and less troubling than fighting for someone, i know you have once told me that before, but i got arrogant, i made myself forget, as after all i am a human, as dumb as them all. Don't give up on me man,keep reminding me, as sadly you are my only refuge and 'let out' now.
